Unworthy of anything

Over thinking. Lack of self-respect. Fear of solitude. Three ghosts that have been haunting me since... don't really know. Indecision, not knowing what I want... when I unconsciously become my biggest obstacle. How do I prevent this? Wish I could get over this and do the way I please... but then I end up pleasing other and betraying myself. Every single time. I wish I could be more selfish. Simply not giving a flying fuck about shit. Make the world spin around me. But... how? Am I condemned to be a coward forever? It is easier to just give up instead of fighting for what I long... but, isn't it worth the risk?

 This year, I ask for one thing: Strength to overcome my fear of failure.

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